My son has just turned 12 years old, he told me today he couldn't be seen out with me; "it's imbarassing," this is why we saw the movie Chronicle. A darkened theater with a soda seems to be ok with the tween.
I was also informed recently, by the tween, that he no longer needs me to go into his room at night to tell him goodnight. He said; ''if you don't want to - you don't have to.'' So, I said ''ok, you're getting too old for that, it's ok.'' And, he says; ''OK! Goodnight!'' and ran off to bed. Heart broken mom stood hovering in his doorway asking; ''Is it ok if I say goodnight from here?''
My ex took him for the night to his ex-girlfriends and his new house?? Who knows what's going on there. Jake loves her girls though and enjoys spending time with them and that's what they were doing, even though the ex and his girlfriend are now 'ex's.'
It's complicated.
I always think I will like a break from the tween but then I get lonely and miss his 'tweeniness'. That's why I have the pigs but they are not like dogs in that sense. They are company though and that is important to me. Plus, I had to catch one of them that escaped tonight, so - some drama there. He took to hiding under my bed (his favorite spot when he runs away). Don't know how I caught him by myself. Dumb luck I guess! :)
I find certain TV shows company too. Right now "Big Bang Theory" is kinda like my comfort food. I tape every episode and watch them over and over; whenever I just want noise, or I'm lonely, or sad, or working on my computer. It's a strange attachment to the characters as though they are my own friends. It's just comforting to hear their voices and they make me smile.
I've been meaning to start a blog but not sure what I want it to be about this time. Maybe just a journal of my days so I don't forget the important, fun, heartbreaking, and touching details of my new life and Jake's life while I still have him with me.
I would also like to document inspirational items that catch my attention and blessings God sends my way.
Until next time --
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