From Woman 2 Woman FB photos

I had to be reminded of this, today.  I felt worn down and depressed last night.  When the harsh reality of divorce rears it's ugly head it's not a pretty site.

I can say all kinds of things; ''I'm happier now, I am moving on, I have hope.''  But, that doesn't pay the bills, that doesn't repair my credit, that doesn't guarantee a beautiful future.  Sometimes, even though I don't want to, I have to look at the consequences of my choices and I have to wonder; 'what's next?'

I don't want to watch my life slowly disentegrate into poverty and settle for a life that I don't believe is what God wants for me.  

I do have hope.  I do have faith in God and believe he is in control.  I prayed last night for him to show me what I'm not seeing, what does he need from me, what can I be that I'm not giving myself a chance to be?  Is this it??

I got some reminders today when I read my Brave Girls posts that I have always had what I needed, even if it wasn't much...  I had what I needed and I will continue to have what I need.  God, answering my questions, letting me know he is still here, taking care of me and Jake.

I cannot have fear and faith.  I choose faith.  It may not look pretty, my life, right now.  But, I choose to believe good things are to come.  I will keep my eyes toward God and my feet moving forward a day at a time.  

~  TR