Pic from 'Unconditional Love' Wall photos, Facebook

There was a time I thought I would NEVER want another man in my life.  EVER.  Lately - I'm craving love? Intimacy? Romance?  Partnership?  I don't know which one specifically.  Maybe it's just the fantasy of some 'night in shining armor' coming to sweep me off my feet.  


I know I don't want what I've had in the past.  I know I don't want what I see most of my friends have in their 'partners.'  Maybe I'm just fantasizing about being carried away by a man who will take care of me.  That man is very rare and probably not someone I will ever come across.  


I don't know what has caused this change of heart, I really don't.  I have been through so much heartache in the past 10 years.  I have been kicked around, lied to, played with, pushed to the side and dumped on.  I don't know why I would ever want to open my heart up again to another 'man.'  It seems so sensless to me.  But, there is a deep part of me that is sexual and is loving and wants to feel loved and intimate with another person.  There is another part of me that wants no part of that complication in my life.  


I love hard and when I fall in love I go a little crazy.  I have even written a letter to myself should go into 'crazy love' mode to help keep me somewhat lucid.  


Is there a man out there that can handle me?  I really don't know.  I'm a handful.  On the other hand, I'm worth it.  This man must handle headstrong, independant, moody, quick tempered Tracey to get Loving, sexy, affectionate, giving, loyal, sweet Tracey...  


Believe me, sexy Tracey (in and of herself), is worth the work!!


Good luck boys!  ;-)